*klar

THIS IS MY SINCEREST APOLOGIES FOR SCARING YOU ALL. really sometimes I just get really nervous. not because i'm scared about what people think of my art and its not because anyone ever upsets me or because i suddenly hate my art, it's really just a personal thing. I was sloppy in the past and it's just way too easy to track my gallery down using my RL name and sometimes I get afraid that somehow all the things i post here will somehow add up to something that may hurt or disrepute someone I care about.

thus the occasional journal cleanse, and sometimes, storing all my deviations at once and then choosing which ones to post back up, or deleting ones with giant flamewars or disabling comments, makes me feel a lot more comfortable still having my art posted, and it puts me at ease with the possibility some relative will decide to look at my stuff knowing they won't come across me holding a spaz war with a quality troll.

What really did alarm me was how deeply it seems to affect some people when i feel the urge to flee and I would seriously never want to hurt or scare you good folk or discourage any artists by taking down my art u u; i don't understand it but i wouldn't take my stuff down to hurt anyone, only to make myself feel safe sometimes, because when you see some glaring thing you can't stand to look at sometimes the only thing you wanna do is hide it so noone else sees your failure. i only panic sometimes and feel the need to protect my privacy and that of my friends, i never meant to stir up drama and really all the kind words are sweet but unnecessary 88 i appreciate it though and again, i apologize for being so sketchy sometimes. I've always been beyond overemotional and while I've tried to rein it in and I think I've improved vastly, i still have my moments of idiocy. sorry darlins u_u

You know I could never leave you. try not to overreact next time. I'll always come crawling back <3