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probably why i didnt get into sheridan?

this was my favourite piece in my portfolio, but they gave me a column of 0's for it. the 1 for creativity broke my heart, to me it tells a story at least. i probably should have lined some things? but in the application outline it said to leave things rough and loose. SERIOUSLY THOUGH.

eh.

i'm going to BC to grow weed. i guess this has saved me in a way from 4 years of shelling out money i dont have and toiling to make hideous garbage for cereal commercials for people with no taste. i could really use a real job though. the oven is slowly destroying my hands, and the onions are blinding.

<3 commissions will come in email.

thank you *YamiNoMalik for holding my hand through this horror i am sorry for failing you lets go to fiji.



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sorry i take back the goodbye crap. i'm not gonna let this get to me. i know my first reaction is to QUIT DA FOREVER and smoke a bowl every time im hearbroken, but really, this time? i'm more just pissed.

it's been a lifelong dream of mine to go to this school, to learn to make my dreams real, all that shit. to breathe new life into traditional animation. to make oldschool disney films again. to make people inspired. to end this terrible reign of computer animated garbage wrecking the minds of our youth. honestly. if you liked shrek, you're ..special.

i'll have to do it without them i guess. and if i REALLY wanted to go, if i really wanted to, i'd just move to toronto and break into every class anyways. i never wanted their approval or their marks either, i need more education so badly and they have so... so much lifedrawing. the biggest thing in my mind was the fact that you have to work really hard once you get there, and that was what i needed. i guess i'll have to work even harder without guidance. i'm more just infuriated that they promote themselves as being so amazing when now, clearly, they're FUCKING rude. do you want to see the characters they gave us to make a storyboard with?

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when i first saw this... oh for fuck's sake. tbh i didn't want to get in.

no wonder animation in north america is dead. if this is supposedly one of the best schools... animation is just a CAREER now, and i'm sure they hear all this idealistic garbage all the time from people with big dreams and it must suck to have to shatter them but damn. i don't know.

just... fuck, man. now i'm relieved it was all just a huge joke. i tricked myself into wanting something that didnt exist. i'll fix this somehow bebes. be patient. i'll make yall something awesome.

still cant be around as much as i was. i didn't make rent while i worked on folios and i'm still struggling to break even now and to even find the energy to finish drawings but now that i have closure on this i feel a bit relieved and inspired. why is this all in a scrap and not a journal? because i'm mental.

i'm sorry DA. i know ive neglected you. and i shouldn't punish my DA folk just because i was so mistaken about something. you guys gave me the courage to try, and from this i've learned that my success is in my hands and not in an instutution i couldn't respect anyways. in a way i will have to work a lot harder to create and improve in the ways that i want to (anatomically, structurally, mostly, the ADD is what needs to go), but i think in the end you will end up with better things to look at.

thank you sheridan, and for those accepted, don't let them suck the very marrow of ur souls. please do let me know what you learn there so that they can be surpassed and conquered. there will be better someday.

anyone else seen paprika?